Post 200 ~ 19 years of smiles

at the end of a long chapter its funny how all the good rises to the surface in the wake of my Joshua turning 19 it seems and feels like more than a page has turned

you are the consummate mr smiley jkothephotoguy

who likes all things different you watch clouds wait for the clearing and then mark your time by reciting scripts from movies repeating words and choruses and printing in your cryptic way

so many years ago now you came along yet before you were born I gave you back to G-d, to the universe while I was sitting at the North Shore Studios in North Vancouver I would take two buses and a sea bus every day and you would be my companion hidden away

this day you are handsome tall and all smile Im remembering that you love dragonflies enchanted by bees and eggs to boot then all of a sudden you started to collect loot there were times of exhaustion times where I along with you we near you thought we would lose our minds and our selves all together we did not know how to live the autistic way so we molded ourselves to you and you to us and somehow we worked it all out with many people too many to mention in this post

slowly and faster you began to grow now you are the life of the party always have been as you have interpreted the world through a lens so fine in a zone that none of us have known yet we struggle to own our life that would not be as good as yours without you in ours

in between the folds pressure mounts try to fit the pieces of a life all together strain to learn the way to go let you learn in the moment and relearn how to do absolutely everything from scratch until it becomes a script then you memorize the steps the way forward in your innocent gentle way with a slice of sneaky pesky abilities amidst the disabilities you are not shy or sly but earnest and good—looking for all things yellow or white hoping to find at Garry a kite a bird a boat or plane

this is you of jko fame…..

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3 Responses to “Post 200 ~ 19 years of smiles”

  1. dojoagogo Says:

    Beautifully written E! You have elucidated 19 years from 2 sides in a few short paragraphs plus the profound love you have for your first born son. Parenting has a lot to do with how the child turns out! You and D have done a wonderful job and Josh is a fabulous young man. Kudos all around!

    • thanks my amazing bffa, can you take me in your dojo bag to H…ill miss you this week, go crazy with the photos and enjoy and live your wonderful life to the fullest going forward with all you intend for 2010 and beyond

      love you so much

      be safe to k

      love your E!

  2. Wish u could come hon. Give Josh a big birthday hug for me!

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